I really don't know how to help in this situation... Maybe what I'm saying will help, but who knows.

I was diagnosed as Bipolar at a young age (only recently got my diagnosis changed to Bipolar-Type Schizoaffective Disorder), so I've known something was wrong my entire life. But what really helped me was this:

First you have to accept the fact that there is in fact something different about you. I used to try so hard to pretend like nothing was wrong, but when I finally admitted that something was, I felt a whole lot better.

Next, it really shouldn't matter what your diagnosis is (save for the fact that the doctor needs to know so they can help treat you), as long as you understand what you're feeling yourself. The illness can present itself differently in each person, so it's important to understand how it presents itself in you. Try not to think of it as a label either, try to acknowledge the fact that it is part of who you are - NOT who you are, only a part. That's what I've been doing and I finally feel happier about my situation.

Another thing that really helps me is the support of my family. I have a lot of love and support from them, and then also the help of my psychologist and psychiatrist. Having a good support system is a great way of coping too.

So I don't know if that will help you or not, but that's what I did and what is helping me. Everyone is different and I hope you find what you need soon.