Here is the gest of things why I feel this way.....
1. I litterally have no family.
2. I can't seem to get a decent job. (my only friend has a job at a really good co. and I can't get one)
3. The state seems to be given up on me with helping me look for a job (I signed up with mental rehabilition services over a year ago still nothing).
4. with the way this economy is going I really have strong doubts that I will get aproved for social security, if I should decide to go that way another words yet another rejection.
5. I am going on 38 and I have never been in love. I am reject with guys cause I am too kind looking and too natural looking (I don't look what society says is a pretty face).
6. The boarding home I live in is not the greatest. I can't move cause of no money. my only friend is away from the home 50 hours a week cause she is happily at work with a good co (she has a great self esteme cause of her job and she has family who cares).
7. I have a hard time keeping online friends (I guess cause I am nothing)
8. I keep these feelings inside of me cause I don't want to bring my only friend down cause she is so happy and I am not.
I don't know what else to do anymore.
I wish i wasn't here, I just feel that I cant go on.