Secretum I can so relate to what you are saying. It is hard living as a BPer each and every day. I understand the feeling of being an outcast. I feel that way at times with my own family. Friends wise, I have one which lives in another state so it is like I have none. Sometimes I wonder if we throw off some kind of vibe that we are troubled. There are the good days though that we live for. We can also hope for the right med cocktail to make us "normal". Just know you are not alone. You have us and we understand.