Did quite a bit of damage to my upper arm... been telling people it was my cats, but I don't think they're buying it (only fellow band members saw it). Long story short, I've been REALLY needing some permanent & reliable personal time to myself. B/F (that I broke up w/a month ago) has gotten a new job w/same hours as me. He's ALWAYS here when I'm here (still lives w/me in my house).

He promised to move out ASAP, but is constantly borrowing money from me for food/gas/cigs/pot, etc. (generally DELAYING...) I want my money back, but after he pays me back, he will STILL have no money to move out w/this weekend. AGAIN!!!! If I don't give him money, he f'king sulks all evening & I want to punch his face in for being such an ungrateful f'ck to begin with.

Fighting homicidal tendencies at this point. Cut hard & deep (7 times) to keep from harming him physically. Just can't take it anymore... 3 weeks & no more than 15 minutes a day to myself... Been having SUI thoughts the whole while. I WANT MY LIFE BACK OR I WANT IT TO END!!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!