I really appreciate this post. I'm going through this right now, watching my dad die. I am terrified of depression, and I notice I am getting higher, then it morphs to weeping. I am weeping over something real, but my brain is trying to keep me well above those feelings, except when I break through.

Plus I've lost so much of my structure, which helps keep my mood level. And I really can't take meds, even the antibiotics I am on for bronchitis and the antihistamines have triggered my liver again. I got TD from Trazadone I was taking for sleep. I have had TD on two other meds, too. Something about the antipsychotics causing TD in middle aged women. Fun, so I am a crazy old lady.