Thanks, Puzzcar! I have my mom on call right now... she's about an hour & 1/2 away... but I'm almost afraid she'd like to throttle my ex more than I would!! I'll be safe... probably too drunk to do anything proper now (a blessing & a curse). :-P

I definitely want to change... but my T insists I'm incapable of change until I stop drinking. Which I think is BS. I never ASKED to be taken advantage of. I'm just too generous for my own good & it pisses me off when it's not appreciated or reciprocated.

Anyway, if I call anyone now, it will have to be 911 & I'll be issued a 72-hour hold. Can't afford that... My mom (if I called her) would insist on the same. I have a slew of feral cats (and permanent indoor cats) that I am responsible for feeding 2 x day. Can't let them down...