Thanks, guys. I'm really struggling right now. I'm crying one moment, madly pacing the room the next. I feel that God is a sadist for creating me. I feel 100% different from everyone. I don't see any solutions.

I am not certain of anything. I don't know what I feel, and occaisonally even if I feel. I don't know if anything can satisfy me, ever. Forgive me for my drama, and Im sorry if I triggered anyone. I'm trying to censor myself, but I have things that need to be let out...

I want to be understood. I want to feel human. I want to be grateful for the gift of my life.

I want to belong.