So much of my memory is blocked. I know it is to protect myself that I block but do I have to block everything.

I'm also not visual at all. I go by sounds. Some years ago when my mother had her own house she would changes the curtains or her furnutures and when I would go visit her she would asked me" What do you think?" Oh dear, what do I think? about what? what did she had there before? Then she would get real mad at me for not having noticed what she had in her apartment before and after, telling me I was a lost cause. I simply don't noticed things. It's not important to me. Sounds, feelings, that, is important to me. Husband thinks I'm a lost cause too. Well, I think they are right. But, right now, I am on a different subjet.

I still can't block what happened last june though. This is one I wish I could. Every details is printed on my mind. There I go again, different subjet. I better shut up.

Thank you!