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Originally Posted by pigsCANfly
1) You just on mood stabilizers now then? ...
2) ....some of the newer atypical anti-psychotics are good for managing the manics too, ...
3) ... However, every month or so I get it into my head that I made my illness up or that It was just the stress the other times I was ill, so I decide to come off my medication. ....
Honestly, I seem to get really delusional about it, in a way. 'I was never ill, I made it up in my head'...... then I come off meds and get ill again.
Does anyone else do this? I know it sounds crazy but it really messes me up.
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1) Yup - just Epilim and Lithium. They are helping with the mood control, but they aren't helping me with confused thoughts, a sense of being watched, fear that something is influencing my ideas and visions, certain noises that are trying to break down my thought barrier like an acoustic wrecking ball so that others can listen in.
2) Yes, I was hospitalised and put on Invega (Paliperidone) to control both acute mania and psychosis. I quietened down the same day I got the pill. It took about 3 days for the delusions & hallucinations to show cracks and it never took away the derealisation - surreal colours, halos, echoing distorted sounds.
3) I think you feel well more often than I do. LOL. I seldom have a chance to think I'm free, but when I have had a day or so, I can feel the strong allure of the sirens, convincing me that it has all been a bad dream and that there is nothing wrong with me. My wife quickly pops that bubble and reminds me. I have read about it in the literature - how common it is for people to go off their meds and then find themselves in a nasty episode. Now I am seeing from the inside just how deceptive it is and how distorted our thoughts can become.