But, about what? We don't spring full-grown into adulthood, our own people; we're built out of all our experiences and our responses to them. You know how you think thoughts and dream about things you don't know where they "came" from? They all come from us, and all of us is there, trying to be helpful and let us know what is going on with us, who we are. Right now you just happen to be concentrating on some good, hard, full-time therapy work to access some of the stuff that has been around but hasn't been looked at yet because you were too young, didn't have the experience/"words" or wherewithal to work with it yet.