This past June, my daughter and I went on a vacation with a friend and her children. In the past her son and my daughter have gotten along okay...with moments of fierce fighting. The mom and I were friends, and the kids a year older, so I thought it would be okay. Well, it wasn't. The 10 day vacation was a nightmare. After several days of the kids fighting, my friend basically accused me of being a bad parent. She threatened to drive herself and her kids home. In retrospect, I should have let her. But I was afraid of losing her friendship, so I persevered. Her son continued to torment my daughter. This 2 week period was my two weeks of uninterrupted time with my daughter this summer, so I was devastated I has spent it on a nightmare.
My "friend" stated I could not control my daughter and that I was basically "crazy" and my meds needed to be changed. I told her I usually nap in the afternoon for about an hour (my meds make me tired) and this made her resentful..she had to "watch the kids fight" by herself. She brought no toys/entertainment for her children so they fought over my daughter's. And it rained every day.
The "friend" has not spoken to me since and I have not called her.
Today my daughter and I head to the beach for a 2 days. I will make sure I take my meds. But I feel such pressure to make up the bad vacation with this tiny break. I want to have a TERRIFIC time, not just a good time. I want her to remember having a bit of fun this summer.
Prior to this summer, I was in a depression cycle and the Spring passed by in a dark blur. I slept most of the time she was with me and I feel guilty about that, even though I could not help it. So, wish me luck and no rain!
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Charlotte
"I know that God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that he didn't trust me so much." ~ Mother Teresa
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