re your back...have you discussed the pain and solution with your doc. i had spinal fusion and never felt better. no pain!
re pain killers and benzos-it would be best if you be weaned off from them with a schedule from your doc. very dangerous to do it alone.
anxiety attacks-i learned in therapy to ask myself what i am afraid of? why flight or fright? in therapy you could learn skills to deal with your anxiety.
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