Hi, sorry you are having such a tough time right now.

I have this dilemma at times. My T tells me to call if things are bad to stop the SI, but I don't want to waste his time. I think either I am going to do it or I am not. If I am then what's the point in calling him as I have already decided to and if I am not, then there is also no point in calling.

However this is only in relation to SI, I think in terms of thoughts of more significant damage being done, then for me it is important to ask for help before the point that the decision is made to go ahead with a plan. So I would say if anyone has a plan and has means to carry out that plan and is having active thoughts, then that would be the right time to contact a crisis team even if you think you would "probably" be OK.

Keep safe - Soup