Unless I tell them, most people wouldn't know how anxious I can get. When I was in the hospital I was in a perpetual state of anxiety and staff were commenting on how calm and collected I seemed. I wish I could let out what I was feeling, but the smile went on my face, and there were no hints of anxiety like foot shaking or things like that. I am working on that with my T. I want to be able to show the hidden parts of me without feeling threatened or appearing that I am less than perfect. (No one is perfect and it is silly to put that expectation on myself.)

Wait, what was the question?