It sounds like you do have some good things going for you with school and what you want to do. It also sounds like you need to talk to someone professionally. It may help give you a different perspective on yourself and help make your expectations of yourself more realistic and reasonable. A therapist is a good person to talk to. It takes a little work to find one you can build a relationship with but the outcome is usually worth it. It is also a good idea to find a good Pdoc too. I have no idea if you are on meds, but they can be helpful and useful in managing the symptoms of BP. It takes time to figure out the best combination but it can also be worthwhile to do. I am sorry that you are struggling and hope that things improve for you.
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No great genius has ever existed without some touch of madness. Aristotle
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