I am recently diagnosed within the the last month. Been to the hospital 2 times. Have been out a couple days after staying in for 10 days. Still wasn't sleeping on my own. I am now on 2000 mg of Depokote, 6 mg of Risperdal (they say only temporarily and then they will cut back) a med for nightmares and benedryl to help with sleep.

I am frustrated and feel slowed down but am still not sleeping without taking doxepin, which they say can keep me in mania however I need to sleep!! In the hospital they were giving me a barbituite for sleep that obviously I cannot have out of hospital. I feel scared and pls don't judge me about the high doses I was in a very bad mania. Not a fun one I went into psychosis. I have appt with p doc next Thursday.

Any words of encouragement would be much desired.