I know it doesnt feel like it at all but everything WILL be okay. But you have to believe that. I've been where you are and the only thing that kept me going was the belief things were going to get better. Also, medication. There is a right dosage and a right medication for almost everyone but sometimes it can take a long time to find that right combination. Luvox has been my savior. You need to find something that works for you and eventually (yes it may take awhile) it WILL get better. Hang in there and please email me if you wish.