((((((fabuloussix)))))))))

I hear you, welcome to PC, you are not alone in feeling this way. I hope you are making sure that you have a therapist and pdoc to work with you. You cant run from it, I know, I tried, doesn't work, it just follows. What you truely need to do is work through it with help, lots of help and others will tell you and truely understand that it is difficult but you can do it.

There are many here that understand and your definitely not alone. Take some time and reach out, get to know others, keep coming and make sure you get help and don't just sit and suffer. There is help and you have to keep asking.

Many hugs for you, I will keep you in my prayers,
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