IMO, go back on the meds asap-what is the one they advertise as having "no sexual side effects" ? Is that a possibility? I think its Wellbutrin. Im thinking if f youre going to be faking the saex thing anyway, you may as well be on the antidepressants, right? I was in a similar situation once...not good for your self esteem at all. Please ventas often as you want. You friends here never get tired of listening. HUGS!