Hi Zoey.

I have been struggling with this too, and it is so disheartening and frustrating..sad..the dissociation is so strong, second nature, it is natural for human beings to do this process is what I am learning, but how do you turn it off after years of adaptation? I don't know...but I thought I would let you know your not alone...I am going to participate in a study soon on memory funded by the NIMH, I don't relish the idea of being a Psychology Lab subject..but I want to understand this process more..my mind is so full of holes...professionals tell me not to push it..that there is a reason the release valve we have works this way..but..it hurts to loose your life and your mind. pieces at a time..