I am so tired of putting on a happy face.
I have to put on a happy face with my family because if i don't they freak out.
I have to put on a happy face with my friends, because if I don't, i end up getting left out of stuff they do together.
I have to put on a happy face at church because it's church and people look at me like a freak if I don't do the happy face.

I want a chance to be whoever I am at that moment. I want to be allowed to be sad when I am sad, angry when I feel angry, happy if i'm really happy.

I want someone I can talk to and say, guess what, I feel like s.h.i.t today. Oh yeah, and I cut last night. I could just really use some support.

I'm tired of always having to hide from the real me. The real me right now is like a robot. I have no feelings. I am nothing. I simply exist and laugh when one would be expected to and do as is expected. I do not feel any genuine emotions...