nicoleb2, I can relate. I think we spoke about this in chat last week. I'm the one staying with my sister and it's happy face or else they freak. I find my friends who accept me for who I am the best because I don't always have to be happy. I also find this in my support groups for my mental illness. In short order, I had to make places for myself to be myself until I can just flat out be myself. I know how frustrating it is... how angry one can get because other people just don't get it.