My reply is for your specific situation but also for all the other people who hang their entire existence on one other person. You could have the perfect relationship but if God forbid an accident or illness took your loved one away from you what would you do? Please, please, please develop all the facets of yourself and your life. Get an education, learn some skills (particularly those that can help you support yourself if your partner dies or leaves you) develop some interests and hobbies you can do on your own and some you can do with other, platonic friends. Romantic love is nice but there is a lot more to life than that.