Since about 2-3 years ago, I've had the feeling that I could be bisexual. In my entire life, I've only dated one person and that wasn't anytime recent.
Through my High School years so far, I've liked a few other girls. But when I get around to telling them, or telling other people & them passing it onto the girls that I like, I end up feeling awkward being around those girls...to the point where my feelings for them pass and we remain friends. I'm not sure if I just have issues committing to a relationship..or what.
I have also liked a few guys... and as of this moment, I still like one.. I haven't said anything to him, nor any other guy I use to like, because I'm not ready to come out. I think I'm still a little young to determine what I am..and I don't want to say something and then it end up being different a year from now.
Anyway - the guy I like now... I feel like he might like me too, but then again, I can't be sure. We met at the beginning of the school year, due to the fact that I looked at my schedule wrong, and went to the wrong class - the class in which he had...
We didn't talk or anything that day...but after that, I noticed him around a few of my friends. Every time I would walk passed him, I would act like he wasn't even there..because knowing me, I wouldn't be able to hold back a smile when we saw each other.
As a few more days passed, I was walking around by myself and caught up with two of my friends in the student lounge...and he was there working on homework. I sat down with all of them, telling them about how I couldn't find any of my friends anywhere...and how they probably all ditched me. A few minutes later, he jumped in and jokingly said that I almost cried about it. (I'm not sure how to explain this part...?), but I feel like he was trying to make me smile or something /:
After that..I started having feelings for him...and for whatever reason, we barely saw each other around anymore. When we do, it's for a few seconds and then it's over...but when we do, I feel like he's staring right at me.. but I refuse to look directly back.
Well, lately I've been hoping that he had some feelings for me... but I guess not, I don't know.. Apparently since yesterday, he's in a relationship with some girl and I couldn't help but cry about it... I may barely know much about him, but I feel like I care about him a lot. /:
I'm not sure what to do... I guess I'm bi? I have no clue. Everything's so confusing when I like somebody..no matter what gender they may be /:
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