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ok a clue, we light each other up when we see one another. He used to spend hours visiting me, with absolutely no desire to leave. We'd talk about EVERYTHING under the sun. My blunt nature on any topic never offended him - if anything he seemed to enjoy it immensely. We'd laugh and play a lot together. He is quiet or hard headed around everyone but alone with me - he would suddenly just blurt out something deeply private and sweet. So shocking to hear from this big, gruff man. When we look at each other I can't look away & all I can see is him, the world gets all fuzzy around him and I can see the love in his soul through his eyes. We'd dream of children and a life together. And HOLY crap!!! when when he kisses me (which is very rarely) there are FIREWORKS, SYMPHONIES, my knees get weak, all thoughts are gone, he takes my breath, & my feet leave the ground.

...and so that's the only clue I've got but for all the, "You're all I ever think about."s to the, "I could just talk to you for hours and never get board."s there's the lies and games that are tearing me apart and breaking me down. My could be - is a has been with no clear end..