as you all know im having a real hard time. Ive been working with the veterans suicide chat line online for some time now. they want me to either self present to the hospital or allow them to call me. I wont give them my phone number because i fear that they'll have the police track me down. I dont really want to go to the hospital for fear of not being taken seriously. I mean how can you take someone serious who keeps coming in for the same thing. But on the other hand i dont want to do anything stupid and hurt my family.

So i guess what im asking is when should i say enough and either give the power to someone else,

or go to the hospital,

or should i just do nothing.

the reason i turn here is my family does not understand, i have lost all of my friends, and the only person who got me died 6 years ago.

It sucks not being normal......