This is kind of a hard question. Almost no one IRL officially "knows" about the BP (I can hardly imagine what they attribute my stuff to!...), so technically they don't see the BP. Just parts of it that they don't know what they are. And I say "parts of it", because there is sooooo much they don't see. So the first and most obvious answer was "just how very much not together and drowning I am". Then popeye said...
This. The thing that those who have not witnessed it would not believe to look at me. Fortunately, not many have. It is so very intense, I've named it. While I like to think it might come in handy if needed for self-defense, truth is, looking back on the mortifications of my life, it has a starring role. (Fortunately, it is overwhelmingly wrought upon inanimate objects. And to a lesser degree, myself, as I suppose such things as throwing oneself against walls is violent...)