It is a must, if feeling suicidal, that you present yourself to the hospital for help. This is the advice that my doctor gave me when I was considering hurting myself and, although I have never gone to the hospital because of one reason or another, I would not hesitate to do so should I ever feel like hurting myself again.

If you feel that you cannot make it to the hospital because of some physical reason, call the police and ask them to take you to the nearest hospital. They are trained in these situations to do this without question.

Whatever else you do, go to the hospital. They will contact your doctor for you and then they will begin treating your condition.

Good luck. When you begin to get treatment, you begin to get better.