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Old Sep 11, 2011, 03:42 AM
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Originally Posted by costello View Post
It's my understanding that schizophrenia used to be called "schizophrenic reaction" in an earlier version of the DSM. Implicit in that name is the idea of something external which the person is reacting to. The term schizophrenia makes it sound more like the person is flawed or damaged in some way.
I've always viewed the schizophrenic spectrum like a foreign language - the same basic thinking is there, just being conveyed to us (and through us to others) in a different way. I don't feel broken or damaged, but my behavior and expression (and sometimes lack of expression) certainly aren't what various doctors tell me is "normal". Still, as your son proves (and myself, I feel), the language can be interpreted. It just takes a patient person to figure out the lingo.

My wife knows my nuances better than I do, for example. She's taken the time to explain to me how she knows what various things I say or do mean, and I'm often surprised not only at her accuracy, but that I conveyed those things at all. I hate outward expression that I am not in control of, I hate it more than almost anything. Loss of control is something that terrifies me. Because of this, what expressions I do have are apparently very subtle. She notes that I fidget two fingers on my left hand in a very particular way when I'm getting anxious, and the same two fingers on my right hand and the same time as the left when I'm angry. I never knew I did that.

My face is a terrible indication of my moods, because I am almost always aware of what it is showing, and it is usually deliberate. Guess I can't keep all the various extremities in check. :P
Thanks for this!
costello