Im like half numb with my feelings about 9-11 I tend to feel alot of emotional pain and anxiety right on 9-11 and tend to relive it but most of the time I just keep trying to shove it inside deep inside I was one of the ones that was there to help with rescue efforts and with already having ptsd and depression before 9-11 I dont really talk about my feelings and emotions I had through it all to help with not having triggers since I got so many other triggers i go through from what got me my ptsd and depression