So I wrote a big long thread in the welcome area telling my story about why I came here.

I'm trying to face my problems instead of running from them. The short version is that I was robbed and had to live with the people who did it for 8 months before they were finally gone.

My apartment is the top floor of a Victorian house. They had the bottom floor and basement.

I was handling it when my son lived with me. He is in the military stationed in California a long way away. Even though he was in boot camp last year I knew he was coming home so I didn't feel like I was alone. Now that he's officially gone and on with his life, I just couldn't tolerate being in that apartment. I spent less and less time there.

I just couldn't face it. I would sit and try to relax and read a book and I couldn't see the pages. I kept seeing and thinking about everything that happened.

The landlord has been really nice but they realize something weird is going on. So she wants to meet me there tonight.

I'm really struggling. She was my friend before she was my landlord. She knows I'm having a hard time but not to what extent. But they noticed there is no water usage.

I have two friends that will be needing a place to live. So they are going to move in with me. They are coming today to discuss and see the place.

When I was robbed the place was wrecked. They did a lot of stuff to it and I cleaned up some of it but some of it never got cleaned up and I just walked away so the place needs work and they are going to help me.

I have a hard time letting people into my house now because of the past events. I have a hard time with a lot of things.

So I have to face meeting my landlord. We've been communicating electronically because I can't face even talking on the phone.

But just writing this here has kind of helped calm me down. It's only 7 am and the time to meet can be flexible.

I'm just scared and anxious.

If anyone has suggestions they are appreciated.