I can't even imagine. My brother was in Desert Storm. Much of what he did was classified to some degree so he never talks about it. I know he had problems. You are not alone. And having your wife to help support you is the very best thing in the world. I miss having someone to lean on when I need it. We appreciate what you have done for us and most people will never really understand how much of a sacrifice you have made. Thank you for it and I hope you get the transfer ASAP.