i havent drank this weekend and i totally admit, its been hard, first weekend in over 18 months, if i get to 2 weekends it will be the first in 4 years.
I was bored Friday night, just stayed in bed reading a book and feeling sorry for myself. Then last night 2 of my friends came over and then a few of us went out for a meal, they all drank and i didnt, the thing is, my friends werent feeling it they stopped after a few drinks and went to bed at the same time as me, so i felt a bit guilty. But they didnt seem to mind.
The thought of drinking actually scared me right now because i dont know what i will do.
You have to want to stop and only you'll know when that will be, when its gone to far, you cant stop if you really dont want to.
I think i've reached that point.
I know i'm not going to stop drinking forever.
My plan is to stop for 1-2 months, with no drinking, just so i know i am in control of it, and then when i go out with friends, plan the exact amounts of drinks i will have and stop at them, and if i cant do that then i'll have to rethink and come up with another plan.
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