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Originally Posted by hopefultoday
I know I should go to AA, but I also know that I won't. I think it's that I don't want to see anyone I know there. I especially don't want to see anyone who might know me through my job there. you can branch out and attend meetings out of your immediate area. my sponsor in AA once asked me, wouldn't you go to any length to get your booze? so the same applies to going to AA even if we feel driving further is more anonymous. as for locally, the person you see there that you may know has the same problem as you. 
if you won't go to AA, why use the step book of AA? AA is a "WE" program.
Thank you for your advice. I'm just still struggling. Talked to my T about struggling with step 6 and she thinks it may have to do with this step dealing with a lot of feelings and emotional stuff. I'm having a hard time recognizing my feelings let alone letting God take them from me. I know this step shouldn't be as hard as I am making it, but I'm kind of stuck here. |
in AA we are taught that we don't have to believe in a God. it's about spirituality. if God is an issue u can use an AA
group as your higher power. many have accomplished long term sobriety, you don't know yet if you can do the same. you can consider AA like this-it's like school where we learn. can you imagine homeschooling yourself about things you don't know yet? AA sure does speed up the process.
i think it's good you are striving to remain sober regardless. not everyone follows in the steps of AA but the support and knowledge you receive there can reinforce the positive. i can't imagine if i could've stayed sober had i not had the guidance of those ppl who got sober and remained sober before me. it would've been impossible for me to interpret and understand all i needed to know. just me.
just my opinion based on your initial post-you would benefit from returning to step 2 and 3 knowing what i've explained to you about god. "came to believe a
power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity."
step 3..."to the care of god as
we understood him." this was created as such because one of the early AA's was an atheist. the story is in the AA
Big Book.
I think that's why you feel stuck. even if you choose to not go to AA the book, 12 steps published by AA, explains how you can accomplish the steps and understand them. You can get a winning edge by not doing this alone.
please know im not proselytizing AA. when i researched ways to get sober tho, AA had the highest % of success for ppl staying sober. that's why i went to AA.
sorry for the long post. i know you are sincerely trying. but there is an "easier, softer way."
