Currently it is affecting my relationship with my husband. We are no longer living together because of my mixed episodes. Because not only do I end up hurting myself and possibly breaking things and scaring him, they also end up making him angry which then causes him to say very hurtful things that make my episodes worse on both the mania and depression sides. I feel angry sometimes realizing that we would probably get along pretty well if I weren't the way I am.

But overall I'd say I've been affected socially most as well. I have few friends and feel so awkward sometimes just trying to talk to or relate to someone else. Before I was diagnosed I just thought I really was a freak and would drink, which was the only way I think I could just blend in and feel normal and happy. Now I've just accepted that I'm different and I try to be ok with having only a few friends (all of which I still can't relate to half the time, but they accept me the way I am so they rock!).