Oh Nicole...
I don't really know what to say, but I didn't want to ignore your post, as I can imagine how you're feeling. I don't know what to suggest, because I know where you're coming from, and I've not really found a way of dealing with it yet other than waiting for it to pass - which it will, it always has before xx

When do you next see your T? Are they aware of this problem and do they help you with it? How do they usually advise you?