From time to time (more so than I would like) I often do not want to be touched and actually have literally pushed my bf away and told him to back off. He's been hurt by this but at those moments I really need my space. So yes, I have experienced it.

Being a survivor is very difficult. But it is not impossible to have a relationship when you are having these difficulties. One of the things I've noticed is that the more comfortable I get with someone, the more I am open to welcoming affection from them. When you're upset or moody, though, those feelings come back and are more apparent.

You need to find someone who will go slow with you, who will be supportive and respect you and your space. That's very important. Communication will be one of the most important things for you since you'll need to be able to tell your mate when and how to touch you.

Try to hang in there.