So, I finally anfd forever quit smoking weed for almost 5 months now, and a few months after I came to the conclusion that I no longer needed to be on my medication and stopped taking my antidepressant/antianxiety meds (through supervision of my psychiatrist). I think I may have needed my meds in the past, but I realized that the highs and lows of smoking weed was really all I was medicating anymore. So now, for the most part, I'm fine. But perhaps I'm still getting used to being sober, because sometimes I feel like I'm on drugs even though I'm not. I don't know, it's weird. I think because I've been on either a medication and/or smoking weed for nearly ten years now it's still something that'll take some getting used to. Does anyone ever feel like this? I think for sure I might be a bit bipolar. I tend to tear up easily and get irritated asily, though usually only early in the morning when I'm still waking up am I the most irritable. Though I for sure want to not go back on any medication unless its really necessary.

So I'm doing this emotion log for my psychiatrist- I'm not sure if I'm doing it right. I have several elements, such as irritableness, anger, tearfulness, anxiety, stress, depression, and I list them on a scale of 1-5 for every day. But the problem is, it's not like I experience them all everyday, or even at a continual period of time. Like I'll maybe have two to three agitated states and feel stressed at times one day, or tear up a couple time the next and feel anxious, but it's never a continual problem throughout the day like it has been in the past. So this leads me to believe I'm fine. Because of course one;s not going to feel happy every instant of every day, that's not normal either. Though I did feel like that a few days back, but that was unusual for me. well, what I'm trying to get at is, is there a better way of recording my emotions ? should I be marking times throughout the day as my mood changes? OR is that excessive? Any thoughts or advice would be nice. Thanks.