Hello Niko, it sounds like you are going through a number of serious problems. First off, I completely support you and understand your feelings. I have dealt with anxiety and panic for years, I just didn't realize it until a few months ago. I suffered from uncontrollable epilepsy for about 5 years. No combination of meds would help control them. The only chance we had left was a surgery to remove a portion of my brain. The surgery went well and we have been able to regain control over my epilepsy. I decided to return to college and that's when I had my first panic attack. I was sure I was going to have a seizure, fortunately I was wrong. The problem was this feeling kept coming every time I would get stressed. I went to my neurologist who said the issues were probably just some nerves about going back to college. I started to take some Xanax to relax me (unprescribed by a Dr). It did help with the anxiety, but I still had some attacks, couldn't drive or do many other things. Remember, Xanax is normally used for specific fears. It is meant to be taken just prior to an anxious event; it is not specifically meant for long term treatment of general anxiety. I finally got into a Dr who said that the Xanax is ok for a few months, but does not give long term help. He changed me to a daily dosage of Celexa which has worked miracles. I push myself to do things that made me nervous and things continue to get better. I also had feelings that my Drs and the people around me were trying to do things that would not help me. After talking to a neuro psych I realized that I was not understanding what the people helping me really meant. Your Dr is probably giving you good suggestions to get healthier, you just have to try and trust them. I know that is very difficult, but remember these people see these difficulties every day and know the best treatments. Xanax runs in and out of the system relatively quickly. This means during sleep the drug may not be working anymore. Sleep is a very common time for panic attacks because you don't have the logical control over your thoughts when you are sleeping. I was constantly waking up scared and panicky while I was on Xanax. It took about a month and a half for the Celexa to help me control these feelings while I was sleeping, but it has worked. Xanax is a quick cure for a fear caused by an obvious issue that can easily be gotten through. You are suffering from PTSD, general anxiety and other long term issues. Conditions like these are helped better by anti-depressants and other long term care meds. This is just a thought from someone who had very similar problems to yours. Celexa may not do it for you, but there are many other meds made for longer term care. They don't have the same instant strength as Xanax, but the long term affects are much better.