So it seems that a lot of my current depression is stemming from this childhood emotional abuse thing. It's frustrating because I'm not even sure how to get over this and I imagine it will take years.

I told my T that I wanted to just stop compensating on purpose. I wanted to take a break from being able to get to work, function in society. I won't of course, but the idea makes me feel good sometimes.

It always sounds so cliche, but I guess it's true, I didn't get enough love/attention from mom and dad, so I'm now screwed up. Damn!