Oh (((((((hankster)))))) I know you have, I have noticed, you have been working hard at it, me too. And I feel very exposed when I post and if I think someone is not welcoming me I feel very hurt.

No, don't take this wrong, you post fine, dont be done. I can't tell you how many times I have felt that way. I almost felt that way in this thread, but I didn't let that happen. And to be honest, I can't even count how many times that has happened to me outside PC. A part of me is almost waiting for that to happen and I know it is a part of what I have. I have walked a line so many times hankster, really. I don't really talk about it that much here at PC but it is hard for me right now. But I am working at it and getting better. I am trying to remember the good things I did and how that got messed up. I have had some bad situations in my life where other people have really hurt me. It's hard to look at in therapy sometimes, it hurts.

I haven't taught in a few years now, those animals were ruined, I was ruined. I am trying to get back there and I do have a "BAD TEDDY BEAR" but I remember that I used to have a good "GOOD ONE". And as JD puts it very effectively everyone is on a path some further ahead, some trying to catch up, different paces for each one, no one is better than another.

No one is really expecting you to change or be different, you don't have to, I dont have to, I am just thinking right along with the others and learning, and like my phrase under my name, I am doing that "ONE DAY AT A TIME".

((((((HUGS HANKSTER))))))

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