I'm in my forties and I still want T to be my mom. Obviously she can't and no one can, she is only 12 years older than me, etc. But it doesn't change anything about my NEED. I still need that experience of intense connection with someone who's attuned to me.
Am I embarrassed about it? I guess that depends on the reaction I get. Former T used to discourage that and therefore I tried to hide it. My current T makes me feel like it's nothing to be ashamed of, and she is responsive to my need and so I am not as embarrassed about it .