I have to agree. I have thought, reasoned out, intellectualized, explained away everything that happened to me, or didn't happen to me growing up and could explain it all. When all of a sudden something tragic happened and I suddenly felt feelings, I fell apart. So started my journey in my mid thirties to learn about feelings and realize I disconnected from life and mentally unhealthy.

Yes, I have been embarrassed by my crying like a little child because I was never hugged by and kissed by my mom and dad, I never did anything right etc.etc. but My T told me it was necessary to cry now because I couldn't cry then. There have been lots of things, but I trust my T. I no longer feel embarrassed in front of him.