I don't remember much....but I was just in such a bad place. I had a fight with my boss and I've been trying to maintain things at work. It's been hard to focus and concentrait. I'm also on meds which tend to make me up and down. Athought antidpressants are supposed to help, I've been on 2 so far. The first was not helpful at all with all the side effects. Now I'm on something else...and I just have to wait. My Pdoc is out until probably till the end of September because he hurt himself. It probably didn't help that I didn't have him to talk to. My T is ok, but sometimes its just not enough. I've aske my T to see him 2x a week, he couldn't manage it so we talk on the phone and meet for the week. I text him if things get really bad.

Sometimes it just gets hard! And I don't know how to handle everything. I wish that my family was more involved with helping me with my mother. It's a lot to take care of a sick parent, especially when you don't have any help! I help people everyday at work...sometimes I just wish they could help me. I'm unfortunally one of those people that has a hard time asking for help and turn to bad things when it gets bad. Sometimes I scare myself with the thoughts that come up. I'm definatly my own worst ememy at times like this.

I'm sorry...sounds like a pitty party - just right now it's been very difficult to get through the days. Today was a little better, I hope that things will continue in a more positive way...I pray!