EJ,
Yes, I was referring to the mother. She seems to know just what to say or how to act to put me back as a little girl- huddled alone in the far corner of a room. Such a big world with big mean people and feeling so powerless-----Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....

So frustrating-- when, here I am an adult now!!

I'm getting even more GRUMPY!!

mandy--
(feeling a little nervous.... not used to letting things out like this......
hope I don't upset anyone -- part of my identity is --I NEVER get angry and don't speak of negative feelings-- I fear getting mad leads to more pain-- which ends with being rejected-- anger is terribly frightening for me to express.... I've rarely even used the "angry" looking smilies in a post-- I used TWO here!!! yikes!!!)