Let me apologise in advance for the length of this message:


I was in a 10 yr relationship with the father of my child until last yr in May when he left me for a girl he met via bbm (they had known each other for 3 wks before he decided she was the love of his life). I took it really hard. I did all the wrong things. I begged him to change his mind and when I realised that wasn't working I got into a relationship with somebody else in July even though I knew I hadn't gotten over him (that ended in September). He was pretty mean to me during all this time (he'd curse me and tell me the most hurtful things). I'll admit that I was stupid enough to believe him when he spoke to me nicely to get something he wanted and so he was able to use me to an extent. In December the girl left him. In January of this yr I met somebody else and was contemplating a new relationship. However, 3 wks after meeting this person, my ex asked me 2 try working things out. I told him I was seeing somebody else but he asked 4 a next chance and I agreed. Shortly after I found out I was pregnant with our 2nd child. He wanted to get rid of the baby but I told him I wasn't doing that so he eventually said he'll support us and we'll work things out.
I'm now 8 months pregnant. He doesn't support me at all. He keeps saying he has no money but every week he goes out with the boys so I've been spending all the money for ultrasounds and doctor's visits. He curses me, humiliates me, calls me the worst names and when I tell him about it, he says it's my fault because I'm such a nag. If I call him and he's busy or eating, he'll scream or curse at me and hang up. If I call him and he thinks I'm talking too long, he'll hang up on me. When I call back and tell him I was still talking, he'll say I'm nagging him. If our son and I go by his house (he lives houses away from me), he'll ignore me completely and talk to our son. If I'm speaking, he'll cut me off midsentence and start talking to our son. If he's leaving to go to work, he'll tell my son 'bye' and ignore me. If he passes us in the road, he'll talk to our son and ignore me. He doesn't care who's around when he's screaming and cursing at me. He even told me in front of our son that he wishes I'd just kill myself and make everybody else happy. If I tell him the baby is kicking he'll just say 'ok' and continue doing what he's doing. He even told me when he got angry he has no proof the baby is his. When I try talking to him, he says that he'll never get back in a relationship with me. If I ask him if he has somebody else, he says that's not my business cuz we're not together. He lies about where he is all the time. I'll see his clothes and know he went out the night before and he'll deny it. He went red bull flugtag in July and when I called him, he told me he wasn't there even though I was hearing the announcer and other people in the background. The list of what horrible things he does goes on and on. We had our problems but two years b4 he left last yr, he had settled down and was basically a great bf and dad (this happened after I left him 4 a while). I know I should leave but it's like I don't have the strength.
Yesterday a 19 yo girl who I suspected he was seeing 4 a while now called me apologizing because she had just found out from her father about me and my pregnancy. When she found out and confronted him about it, he even claimed he’s not sure the child is his own. When I asked him about it, he told me stop minding his business. He keeps saying he hates me. He has recently started saying he wants to get a DNA test to make sure the baby is his even though he knew I wasn’t doing anything with anyone else.
Now I don’t know what he has told her but after saying she was done with him for good, I saw msgs between them on twitter and she has been saying some really bad things about me on both twitter and fb.
I’m so tired of this. I’m so fed up of crying and his total disrespect towards me. What do I do?