I'm sorry for sounding so harshly earlier. I'm just really against medicines especially after having two sessions. I don't like the idea in me not being me some days but ok with it other days. I make no sense i know but. . . I know not all would be able to understand my side of it. I finally agreed when starting this maybe meds if talk therapy didn't work for a bit and it seems like meds is all they offer which really upsets me. How does meds help with past issues? Help with this damn hole in me that sometimes rippes open unwanted. I just guess i don't get it