Hi - thank you so much for your replies, you don't know how much they mean to me, to feel a connection with something again. I'm feeling alittle better now thankfully, keeping quiet until it totally passes. With my mood swings you can never tell what i'll be feeling from one minute to the next so often it's best just to sit and wait.
I will tell you alittle about India, if you like. It is a contrasting country. It can be beautiful and quaint with women dressed in exquisite sari's and magical temples but it can also be very claustrophobic with the pollution from the chaotic traffic and the amount of rubbish laying around. Sometimes all these things add to the charm of India, making it a amazing country but at others (when you are jam-packed into a tiny dirty bus which is doing 50mph and then braking to a stop with just as much excessive speed), it can be very irritating and sore!
It is definately an experience though.
Thankyou again for the replies - you made me smile for the first time in awhile and gave me some strength to cope once more.
Love Abby