My pdoc gave me a new med for sleep because i was only getting 2-3 hours of sleep.
This new med allows me to sleep for 6-7, but makes me so exhausted that I can't function for most of the next day.
It makes me have no emotions. I am just existing.
2 nights ago, I SI'd pretty seriously just to keep myself from doing something more drastic.
I am not suicidal now, but am at the point that I don't want to be me anymore. If this is the me that I have to be forever, I don't know how to keep myself going.