To the extent I'm able to access them. I've been able to feel the anger, which is overwhelming. But they're probably all overwhelming. If they hadn't been then they wouldn't have given rise to my pathology. I think there's quite a bit of terror and aloneness and desperate craving for another person to take care of me. As well as shame (I must have done something wrong to deserve being ignored) and hopelessness from after the time I realized that nothing was going to change. Like that. Take care.